99 Days of Something #6 – Academic Travel to think better
I haven’t been in a writing mood today. I haven’t updated my running blog (I haven’t run but I have cycled) and I haven’t written anything else either. I had basically given up getting anything down today. Some days are just not for writing it seems. Although I always feel better when I do write. But then I was scrolling through social media and saw posts from people I know heading to or having fun in San Francisco for one of the big Law conferences. I don’t want to write about conferences as such but it did make me think about all the places work has taken me that I might never have gone to otherwise. Don’t get me wrong, when I look back, a tiny fraction of conference trips were funded by work, most of them I paid for myself and even the ones where I did get funding, that mostly only covered part of the cost – so this isn’t about seeing the world and having fun on public money, in fact academics are the only group of people I know who routinely pay out of pocket to do parts of their job. And actually conferences are really hard work! Anyway, maybe more about actual conferencing another day.
I have been to some pretty amazing places to conferences, for fieldwork and for fellowships etc over the last 20 years. I got to spend time in Hamburg early on in my career which meant I got to spend lots of time with my Dad (because I stayed with him throughout the fellowship) and my Oma who loved me coming round for breakfast several times a week. I also got to see bits of Bulgaria and Poland as well as cities in Germany I had never been to during fieldwork. I have been to conferences and events in Warsaw, Salzburg, Oslo, Freiburg, Berlin, Brussels, Lund, Paris, Barcelona, Toronto, Montreal, Philadelphia, Washington DC, Mexico City, Brisbane and those are just the ones I can remember off the top of my head. In many of these locations, particularly those outside Europe, I have always tried to add a holiday to make it worth going that far. But even when I have only done the conference, I have always made time to see at least a little bit of the place. It’s a perk of the job in some ways because sometimes conferences give access to places you don’t otherwise get. For smaller events that might just be seeing the inside of the university hosting the event – but I love that. I love getting a sense of universities in other countries, the way they feel, what they show to the public and what you can glean from being behind the scenes a little, wandering corridors, reading noticeboards (where notice boards still exist) or looking at what pictures (if any) they choose to hang on their walls. Bigger events sometimes get you access to things historic buildings for drinks receptions or dinner, or special tours like the Supreme Court in Washington DC. It can also give you a very warped sense of a place though if you just stay in your conference bubble. There were a whole load of people who missed out on amazing street food in Mexico City because they never really ventured out from the conference hotel or recommended restaurants.



The overseas trips are of course often the ones that stick in your mind. The Brisbane conference was epic partly because it fell right in the middle of a 4 week Australia adventure that we designed around the conference. I had won a best paper prize which meant that the conference fee was waived and I received some money towards travel which basically paid for my flight. Anyway, most of my conferences and events have actually been UK based. I disproportionate number of them in London but UK travel has also seen my visit Edinburgh, Glasgow, Stirling, Cardiff, Swansea, Newcastle, York, Liverpool, Manchester, Nottingham, Leicester, Birmingham, Worcester, Stratford, Reading, Bath, Norwich, Brighton, and probably lots more I can’t think of now. I don’t tend to stay longer for UK events but I do often still try and see a bit of the place – that might be with a little tourist run or a walk. In some ways it is a great way to see little bits of a place which then means you can decide if you want to go back and actually spend some time there. I have a soft spot for Leicester because I was a student there. I’d never go there as a tourist but I will always jump at an opportunity to visit for work. Same for Birmingham. I would like to spend more time in Bath – good incentive to get on with the DBA, maybe a summer graduation with a day or two either side would be a nice way to spend a few days.
Anyway, what’s the point of writing this. Well, partly it just popped into my head that I have been to a lot of interesting places because of work and partly because it is a really good reminder that it’s not all about spreadsheets. Occasionally it can and must also be about exchanging interesting, exciting and complex and challenging ideas with other people who are interested in similar things, who can share their perspective and challenge your own. It’s about being asked and asking questions that make you re-think, tweak or abandon arguments, it’s about pushing each other to think differently and articulate more clearly. Not every conference achieves that but those that do go some way to rewiring the brain and changing the world for the better. For me that level of thinking, challenge, re-thinking and that level of clarity and focus is something I can rarely achieve when at home and doing the day job. It is something I know I struggle to achieve when attending events online. There is something about being in a physical space away from home and sharing that space with others and giving in to the intensity of the conversations and just rolling with it all in spite of imposter syndrome, in spite of sometimes not really understanding and in spite of always being completely over-peopled that makes my brain fire up. It’s where the magic happens. It’s where I am pushed to think better.
I hope all colleagues in San Francisco have an amazing time and come home buzzing with ideas and I wish the same to everyone else out there who has conferences or events coming up to challenge you to be better. Let’s accept that challenge and see where it takes us.
100 Days of Wonder – #95
Hope. Disney gives me hope that a better world is possible. That might sound completely bonkers. And maybe it is. But Disney tells good stories – whether through its films, series or in the parks. Of course historically some of them have been hugely problematic and some continue to be a long way from perfect. But more recently Disney is trying to do better, tell better more inclusive stories. Doing better and trying harder is always cause for hope. And the more hopeful the stories the more inspiring and impactful. Maybe telling good stories helps us change the world for the better.
Disney understands suspending reality and the need for escapism and magic. And the more we can give ourselves over to that every now and again, the better. It helps us remember what hope feels like, what could be.
As I said yesterday, I am struggling a little with depression. It’s not really bad and it is easing. Today was better than yesterday. I am trying to look forward to time spent believing in the magic and maybe joining Peter Pan for a flight towards the “second star to the right, and straight on till morning.” And somehow that helps because depression tells one set of stories and Disney helps me tell a different set of stories that are at least as likely as the narrative that depression would have me believe. So Happy New Year. May 2025 be full of beautiful, brave, mundane, every day stories that help you believe in your own magic.
100 Days of Wonder – #92

I’ve been thinking about two things today. The first is the idea of less doing and more being and the other is constant change. They’re not necessarily related but at the moment in my head they are because, with just over a week to go I am in Disney mode. It’s probably unbearable for anyone else but my Disney mode as been activated (wait, what? It’s always active, it’s just got a boost). So at Disney the temptation is definitely to be doing. I have commented in previous posts about planning and ticking things off a list and rushing from ride to ride or attraction and how I don’t really get it. But not rushing things and not having a list to tick off, doesn’t mean we are not ‘doing’ heavy. And sometimes being doing focused means that you forget to be right there in the moment. Often if you are doing, you’re not really being. Doing means you start and finish something. Doing has outcomes. That’s why I bake or cook when anxiety is high, that’s why doing admin work and being busy is great when you’re stressed because it feels like you are taking action and sorting things out. And sometimes, doing is of course exactly what is required. But often what we actually need is less doing and being busy and more being, more acknowledging the moment we are in right now, more breathing, more presence.
At Disney there is always something new (looking forward to seeing the Moana inspired Journey of Water this time), and that increases the temptation to do. Every trip there has been something new to see or do, a new ride, or even a whole new area such as Toy Story Land or Galaxy’s Edge. That temptation to ‘do’ those things so easily slips into pressure and a feeling of disappointment if we don’t manage it. And I just never want Disney to be about that. It’s not about doing for me, it’s about being there. Of course I like to do things but I want to do them fully present. I want to consciously be while I am doing the things. Most of the new attractions we didn’t do the first visit after they opened. The queues were too long, the areas around them too busy. It took years for us to ride the 7 Dwarf Mine Train and we didn’t go on Flight of Passage in 2017 because, frankly I won’t stand in a queue for 4 hours for anything. We walked through Galaxy’s Edge in 2023 but we didn’t go on the rides. We’re quite good at focusing more on being and just enjoying being together, soaking it all in and letting the stories play out in our heads.
I chose the picture of the Tree of Life from January 2023 because it is both about doing new things and the constant changes at Disney and about being rather than doing. I think it was our first full day and we were both pretty tired. We couldn’t decide whether to stay for the Tree of Life Awakening light show. We’d never seen it although I think it has been running since 2016 so there would have been at least 2 trips where we could have seen it. So it was something new, something cool to see and do. But it also felt like we were staying just for the sake if it when we actually wanted to go back to the resort and go to bed. In the end we had about 45 minutes before the show and it somehow seemed silly to leave so we found a spot, sat ourselves down and just people watched for a bit. Leaning against a tree I think, or maybe a low wall, we both nodded off for a bit. We were leaning on each other and just enjoying being together without really doing anything. We nearly forgot we were waiting for the show and we definitely forgot we were surrounded by 1000s of other people. The show itself was wonderful. We stood up when it began and watched in wonder, in our own little bubble, just us, alone in a sea of people. Then we went ‘home’ and fell into bed happy. Moments like that are where the magic is!

